I thought I didn’t know love but now that he is gone I realized how much I was loved. The way his eyes lit up when he saw me, I wasn’t the only one but I felt like the only feather in his cap. He broke my heart many a time, I feared, detested and loved him all in one. I miss talking to him, sharing stories of childhood moments he missed out on, seeing his grandkids growing up. I wish I could tell him I now understand him a lot better now, how sorry I am that his fear suffocated him. Because of my dad, I am determined to move in the direction of my dreams and hopefully in doing so will honor him.