Sunshine makes me happy
but as I reflect on the past week, the falling rain calms my tumultuous thoughts.
Outside my window the rain plays the part of a lyrical genius utilizing the gently soaking soil, the thumping on the roof while crescendoing on the wooden fixtures outside. The cherry blossoms can’t help but dance along and turn my walkway into a beautiful soaked runway.
The pace picks up and I can almost hear that soul captivating drum beat of Bob Marley’s “One Love” encouraging me to join in the dance as I did many a time in my youth. Won’t think about tomorrow right now for the present moment is captivating and so transforming.
“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”
― Louise Erdrich, The Painted Drum LP
The last couple of weeks have been hell on my nerves and my spirit. A multitude of thoughts crashing together uneasily. Feeling like I have lost my center. Somehow this quote helps. Don’t quite know how yet but I felt pulled to it.